// earlier today i totally came up with this wicked awesome idea, or rather i decided to commit to a wicked awesome idea i have been kicking around in my head for quite a while, and sent my bffls an email telling them all about my latest scheme and those bitches totally ignored me! all day i excitedly hit refresh refresh refresh until gmail was finally all like, “maybe you should find new friends?” and sure, i could call them but what do you think this is? 2003?!
// this is my birthday month. personally i am the most surprised of us all that it is taken seven days for me to mention this. but here’s the truth of it: i spent all of my twenty-third birthday pathetically crying in to my pillow like a big baby for no reason in particular except that i had somehow managed to convince myself i was going to die alone (which is a feeling i have only maybe had three times prior to my twenty-third birthday and have yet to experience since) and now the thought of turning twenty-four which is one step closer to twenty-five is doing really weird things to my head. and like, i don’t even know guys, because i always thought i was the kind of person who believes age is just a number and 30 is the new 21 and yada yada but age isn’t just a number and what the fuck am i doing with my life, ya know? and listen, i know im being really dramatic right now but it’s my birthday month and i’ll cry if i want to.
// today the rain and i had this moment where i was just like FUCK THIS SHIT I WANT BEACH. i was driving in to the heart of the storm shaking my fists at the heavens above and even my two favorite driving-in-the-rain games couldn’t dissuade my anger. (my favorite rain games being: 1. drive like i’m bill paxton in twister and 2. get stupid happy over the momentary silence that occurs when driving under an overpass) rain, it’s time to shut it down. bring that seattle sun back pls.
// when i moved to seattle i kind of did it all secret agent like and told NO ONE and now i have the “wait i thought you lived in orlando, since when do you live in seattle?” conversation at least once a day. i really don’t mind too much because it allows me to make jokes about how “i really get around” except i’m pretty sure everyone knows i don’t. but i do. geographically speaking.
// i am having this really big issue in my life wherein i don’t really have anyone to talk to about the things i want to talk about. like, lately i kind of run around my work place aggressively asking everyone if they watch mad men and/or game of thrones and it is really bumming me out that none of them do. except then i found one person who really likes game of thrones and i was like LET’S DISCUSS and he was just kind of like, “it’s really cool.” PALMS TO THE FACE PEOPLE. don’t get me wrong, i know i have the internet to talk to about these things, but sometimes i need 3D conversations about my two dimensional television friends, ya know?
hey, this was a weird and really complain-y post. i’ll try and put the kabosh on moody rain blogging. it’s entirely unbecoming.